First love, true love, or what?

okay, when you have that one person in your life that no matter what..you always have feelings towards this person. getting a new bf/gf or not talking to them for months then talking to them again because you couldn't handle not talking to them, after all the pain they made you go through without knowing the pain they caused, after everything; with them moving on and you staying stuck in time, reminiscing. is that a first love or what? HELP! cause its been a year, and i'm still not over him, it hurts :'(