What does this stuff make me...?

I have been pantsed no less than 80 times, stripped no less than 60, I have had a house burn down, a flood, tornado, I was born premature, I have been horribly poor, I have had at least 80% of my family get addicted to alcohol or drugs, by the time I was 5 I had a gun pointed at me, and had been up close to a DEA investigation, my parents were divorced 8 years ago in such a bitter divorce, it almost left me & my siblings homeless, and so much more and I am only 20, what does this mean for me?